Keawakapu Beach, Kihei.
Friday, May 17, 2013
Ouch
Self indulgent post. Don't feel badly if you don't read it. I'm just writing out some middle of the night feelings.
This is my first night of insomnia without Tigger.
I miss him so much.
It's not like he did much besides sleep while I was holding him. I found his company both soothing and relaxing.
Sometimes he purred in his sleep and it lulled me off to sleep, too.
I know it's for the best. He wasn't suffering, but it was time for him to let go.
I just miss him so.
I haven't talked about him much at work. We had to sell cookies all weekend so I told my boss so he would know why C and I were so quiet. He has three dogs so he understood.
Tigger and I had some quiet time together Saturday morning before C took him to the vet. I held him and he was so still. I knew it was time. I talked to him and told him all the things he meant to me. One time I told him it was going to be OK and he reached up and touched my cheek with his paw. I guess we told each other it was OK.
We're slowly getting rid of his things. One of our neighbors is having a tough time financially, so we took all the different canned foods we had tried and gave them to her. She also got all his "Tigger" dirt. She has two cats so she really seemed happy to get everything.
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I got a raise at work today.
It was very nice, but now I feel even more pressure to do a good job. I'm too old for this s**t. I never expected to have a job ever again that made me feel this way.
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What a lousy post. I hope no one reads it. I'd erase it but I guess this is what this blog is for.
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I'm going to log off now. I'm tired even though I can't sleep.
At least tomorrow is Friday. It's been a tough week and I feel as though we haven't had time to process anything.
And, of course, the refrigerator died this week. It's kind of funny how everything stacks up. It's been one of the toughest weeks at work, too.
A character building week. Although I really feel as though I have all the character I need right now. LOL.
Night.
This is my first night of insomnia without Tigger.
I miss him so much.
It's not like he did much besides sleep while I was holding him. I found his company both soothing and relaxing.
Sometimes he purred in his sleep and it lulled me off to sleep, too.
I know it's for the best. He wasn't suffering, but it was time for him to let go.
I just miss him so.
I haven't talked about him much at work. We had to sell cookies all weekend so I told my boss so he would know why C and I were so quiet. He has three dogs so he understood.
Tigger and I had some quiet time together Saturday morning before C took him to the vet. I held him and he was so still. I knew it was time. I talked to him and told him all the things he meant to me. One time I told him it was going to be OK and he reached up and touched my cheek with his paw. I guess we told each other it was OK.
We're slowly getting rid of his things. One of our neighbors is having a tough time financially, so we took all the different canned foods we had tried and gave them to her. She also got all his "Tigger" dirt. She has two cats so she really seemed happy to get everything.
----
I got a raise at work today.
It was very nice, but now I feel even more pressure to do a good job. I'm too old for this s**t. I never expected to have a job ever again that made me feel this way.
---
What a lousy post. I hope no one reads it. I'd erase it but I guess this is what this blog is for.
---
I'm going to log off now. I'm tired even though I can't sleep.
At least tomorrow is Friday. It's been a tough week and I feel as though we haven't had time to process anything.
And, of course, the refrigerator died this week. It's kind of funny how everything stacks up. It's been one of the toughest weeks at work, too.
A character building week. Although I really feel as though I have all the character I need right now. LOL.
Night.
Saturday, May 11, 2013
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